hmm well not much happened really well acutally yeah ALOT happened... so he broke up w/ me on monday... before finals WHATA GREAT WAY RITE!? -____-'' & THE BEGGINGING OF THE NEW YEAR AND ITS ALREADY LIKE SHIT GODAMMIT! for nows im just trying really hard to move onnnn cusi know i cant forget bout it cus it was something in my past but then again im glad that i got to experience reall happiness becuase i swear to my eye that being w/ him was really the HAPPIEST MOMENT OF MY LIFE ! like literally D; ive never been so happy in my life and he really did make me feel lke i was in a dream (; but i guess it just all faded away and something that once meant something to him is nothing to him now. i just cant believe the greatest thing in mhy life just kinda walked away... D; but i guess its better that he didnt go to my school cus if he did idk how i would have lived... if i saw him i would have literally just died in so much pain D; im already in alota pain :/ my heart aches at nite the most cus thats the time we woudl talk on the phone and the time i looked foward to the most outa the whole day cus hearing his voice just made me feel really happy :/ but now its all gone cus he lost feelings i just wish we didnt move that fast i knew kissing him bad wouldnt be good cus usually when things move tooo fast it would end fast. thats what i believed in but he made the first move! ohhh wells. im just really trying to move on and live life cus i shouldnt be sad so much cus thats not the point of living! & i guess it was all just young love that im glad i got to experience cus it did made me really happy and he was always there for me toos and no guy ever was i just really thought he is the greatest guy out there and he is! =) butts he moved on by losing feelings and but at the same time i dont want him to feel like "the worst person in the fucking world" thats hwat he said D; cus he shouldnt at least he didnt cheat on me or wahtever or did anythnig bad and he told me before finals cus thats better or i would be wondering why hasnt he talk to meyet!? & wouldnt be able to studyy but now im just gonna really focused on school and NO LOVE LIFE FOR ME THIS YEAR PLEASE! maybe just like/crush but NO LOVE! but if that does happen which i doubt not thisyear x) cus the guys at gab are lame :P but yeahh! ima just keep my head high try to smile and stuff and laugh and just live (: ! ima reallly try! i am rite now tooos cus brenda told meto<3 me =BE STRONG! since he can move on why cant i rite? & english finals today = not so great :/ i fell alseep LMFAO! i need to be able to sleep today! -_- ENG FINAL TMRW TOOS ); AHHHH wish me goodlucks ! :P

hey BLOGGING MADE ME FEEL A WHOLEEE LOTA BETTER :D