mmm sooo so far my break isnt goin all that great as i expected :/ i just had a very sad convo on the phone D; w/ my babe & we were really quiet no one was talkin like barely D; & we were both crying cus i had a feeling that something wasnt right like he didnt like me anymore and he told me that he just doesnt feel the chemistry that we used to have and i was just very emotional and i couldnt stop crying cus im too scared for him to leave me but he said he'll keep trying cus he doesnt want it to end and he doesnt wanna leave and that hes very sorry for being a jerk but i dont think he is i just thinkk he should have told me when he started feeling like that... but he said he didnt wanna put more stuff in my life since i already have so much going on but i think he should have still told me. i cried alot todayyy & last niteee but last nite i just couldnt say it cus it jsut wouldnt come out so i kept it to myself and was crying wowsss i never knew someone could mjake me feel like this D; & him too cus he barely ever cries he said he'll try really hard and i know he will and i just really hope that it works out and i know it will or thats what my gut tells me but at teh same time im scared that it wont i really dont want him to leave , i realllyyyy..... like him so much he makes me feel like the happiest person alive and he can alwasy make me laugh whnever im feeling down and smile hes the reason why im so motivated to do stuff because i do it for him. when i dont believe in myself he believes in me and he really likes me for me i feel like i can be myself around him i can fart whenever i want to and burp all the time and he wouldnt care im just really scared he'll leave like the rest but the rest they were just pure ass jerks but him he's so different from the rest and i just really hope itll work out
cus i really love you oh so dearly much<3 =/

so its 2:22 am rite now and i still cant sleep D; i just dont have the feeling to go sleep i just cantsss sighhh
well at least i knwo that he really likes me

hmm i guess ima go watchs ome more glee! i just started today and im done w/ episode 10 already D;